I don't recognize myself

I used to have
fire in my eyes
Before they came
The voices, screaming lies

I used to be
The happy one
Always laughing
But now on the run

I used to know myself
and be happy with me
But I don't recognize
The person I see

...

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Posted on: 2009-05-20 13:14:20 by michelletwilight

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You are the first

I never wanted to get serious
Always saw love as ag ame
Planned to break up soon
and give you the blame

But suddenly things changed
In the blink of an eye
I looked at you and suddenly
I wanted to stop my lie

So while I was still in pain
Of a former lover
I allowed you to make me smile
and I took off my cover

You are the ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-11 17:17:11 by michelletwilight

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Here I am again

Here I am again
New pencil, new lines
Still trying to find my way
Throught the hard times

Maybe I'll never find it
The right place for me
Cause I feel so out of place
How will I know
what is meant to be?

Living like they say I should
never made any sense to me
But my own dreams are far away
Untill I've overcome my ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:59:00 by michelletwilight

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March 13. 2009

I'm always afraid
to tell you this or that
Somehow I can never speak
about the problems that I've had
and now it's too late
I've made a mess
when it will end
is anyone's guess

You can't get too close
but you have to fight!
But if it goes wrong
I'll curse and bite

I've hidden it for too long
The pain's too deep

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:57:24 by michelletwilight

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Dec 14. 2008

No one knows
how I struggled through life
No one could see
that I barely survived

Caught in the dark
Caught in the fire
Learned to hide
my every desire

Stop the tears
Fake a smile
Life will be better
in just a while

But it's hard to live
without a friend
Someone who carries you
till the end

But ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:53:54 by michelletwilight

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Dec 11. 2008

I never thought I'd love again
Since he left me, way back then
Since he took my heart just like a thief
I never thought the pain would leave

For days I was alone and cried
Afraid and angry till deep in the night
There was nothing I would not do
cause I was almost obsessed with you

Never loved someone so much
I needed you, your love, your ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:50:32 by michelletwilight

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Sept. 12 2008

I hate you and your stupid lies
you stole my heart and broke it twice
I do not want to think about you
But damn, it's the only thing I do

You were my soulmate
Now I miss you more everyday
I did not know it would be so hard
Living from you apart

I tell myself I am over it
But you're face appears again
and tears start falling

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:36:39 by michelletwilight

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Aug 31. 2008
Always afraid to let you down
it makes me so insecure
But you don't even care to know
the pain I had to endure
I'm dying to hear those three words from you
But I don't hear a single sound
Don't you know
I need to hear them?
I don't know where we're gonna end
I don't know what you feel
Why don't you just take my hand
And I'll show you this ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:29:50 by michelletwilight

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Aug 26. 2008

Today I miss you so much
more than I can say
I really want to be with you
but there's just no way

I long to see you
Every second of the day
But I'm here and you're there
you're just too far away

I can't let it show
this feeling that I hate
I want to tell you though
but I'm so afraid

Please don't go
Don't leave me ...

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:27:44 by michelletwilight

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May 23. 2008

Everyday I'm getting more confused
Lately, you're always around
I promised myself not to fall in love
but in you a friend I found
And this friendship's getting bigger
cause we understand eachother so well
Finally I can get my hand off the trigger
Death is heading back to hell

But how do I know this will last
How do I know we won't get hurt

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Posted on: 2009-05-10 19:25:34 by michelletwilight

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